Lucid dream: scissors and golden hair
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tirsdendreamsI was with a little girl, and it seemed like she was a very close friend even though she was so young. She might have been about seven or eight years old. I was my normal age (27). I'm not sure where we came from or what we'd been doing, but somewhere in the dream I posted just before this I had gotten scissors from my Mom, and I was playing with them. I remember they were little sewing kit type scissors, two metal pieces of the right shape connected by a single tiny screw, which was rather loose. I wanted to fix them so they cut better, and managed to take the screw off. I put the pieces back together wrong, and put the screw back on. After fiddling with it some more I finally fixed the darn thing and got the screw snuggly in place. I'm not really sure where I was while I was doing all this.
The part I do remember very well was arriving back at the little girl's room in her parents' house, as if I'd been there before and was staying there for a while. I think there were a lot of people staying in the house, sort of a family reunion or something (but in reality nobody I know in real life was there, but in the dream it made sense). Anyways, the little girl's room was laid out like the following diagram:
It was bed time, in fact I think it was way beyond bedtime, and we'd been in bed talking for a while. Apparently I was sleeping in the same bed as the little girl, which didn't seem weird in the dream. I still had the scissors I'd gotten from Mom. Either I or the girl found a loose strand of hair and I cut it. Then I found a very long strand of golden hair, it was really pretty yet really odd. It was thicker than normal hair, almost like thread. And it honestly looked like gold. I was thinking it must be from something or someone special (I was thinking of an elf, like Galadriel in The Lord of the Rings), and both of us were a little afraid that we had something like this in our posession. I was thinking about cutting it but something felt wrong with that idea, like it would bring some sort of danger upon us.
Then the hair was tied together at the ends, I don't remember doing that. Did it do it on its own? Now that it was a loop, I looped it back on itself until it was three or four loops, and the whole thing was much smaller now that it was looped more. I then held all the loops together by pulling it tight between my fingers and twisting it so that it made a thick cord. I told the little girl to cut it while I held it so that it didn't fall apart. She didn't seem sure about this, I think we'd discussed that it seemed a bad idea to cut it. But I think we knew we'd set something in motion and we were gonna have to go through with it. I also remember thinking I should be the one cutting it, but I let her do it. It didn't cut completely through in one snip, it sort of frayed weirdly. But after a couple more snips it cut through.
I said something like, "Alright, we've completed your spell, do what you will," to the air in general, thinking that whatever wanted us to do this thing would hear me. Nothing happened at all for a few moments. Then we heard very slow, soft thuds coming from the hallway behind the closed bedroom door. The little girl got very scared and I held her tight and watched the door from behind the headboard. I stared at the doorknob, which was a normal gold-colored doorknob, waiting for it to start turning. Even though it was shiny I was confident that I could see it turn, plus I thought it might shake very slightly when touched (I knew it was slightly loose).
I noticed at this point that the pattern on the door was a sort of latticework of wood that'd been made into a diagonal crossing pattern inside squares, a vaguely oriental look (this pattern came from the Splinter Cell Chinese Embassy levels). Then suddenly the doorknob had a very similar pattern on it, but just one square with the diagonals crossing inside it. Plus it had changed to a sort of cream color, like it was made of ivory or enamel. At least now I would know for sure when somebody turned it. And it was at this moment that I realized I was dreaming. But in my lucid moment I decided to wait and see what happened, as the dream plot seemed interesting enough without messing with it just yet. So I sat there holding the girl and staring at the doorknob.
The doorknob started to turn. Then the door whooshed open fast and I and the little girl screamed really loud (and I promptly forgot I was dreaming). But it turned out to be a guy who was staying at the house, and the girl's mother. The guy was a cop of some sort. He said something like, "What's wrong?" We apologized fast saying that we were scared it was someone or something else at the door. He accepted that and said he was there to take the little girl with him on some sort of bust because the police department did that sometimes as some sort of... educational thing? I have no clue now, but in the dream it made sense, in that I knew it was a normal thing, although I didn't feel it was very safe, even if they said it was.
The girl's mother seemed to be very pleased that her daughter had been chosen to go this time. But the girl didn't really seem to want to go, I think she wanted to be with me. There was still the thought of the golden hair and whatever cutting it might have done. And it was like the adults expected her to accept the invitation to go on the police thing, as if not wanting to go would be a horrifically outlandish thought. I'm not sure if she said she would go or not.
I don't remember any more.
Dream Symbol Analysis. Source: SoulFuture Dream Dictionary
child: Having the opportunity to begin anew; Comforting a child may represent nurturing your inner child; Fun, joy, spontaneity, lack of inhibition; A need to revisit a childhood issue; A premonition about having a child or a desire to conceive; Teasing, joking, deceiving, kidding around.
friend: An unknown friend may represent an aspect of yourself that serves you; Seeking a supportive ally; Needing to accept something, make friends with it.
scissors: Feeling cut off or disconnected from self or others; Enforcing separation; Cutting something down, reducing its impact; Creating something, shaping pieces to fit.
bedroom: Needing to rest, recharge your batteries, or rebalance your energy; Sexuality or intimate relationships. (rest don't apply)
bed: Illness, being bed ridden; Retreat, relaxation, comfort or rejuvenation; Requiring more rest; A thought or idea that is fixed in the mind, embedded or imbedded; Your intimate zone; Sex or sexuality, bedding someone.
hair: The condition and colour of the hair in your dream will provide further interpretational clues; 7th (crown) chakra, understanding, knowing, connection to spirit; Intellect, mental activity; Living in your head as opposed to your heart; Strength; Cutting hair may symbolize change or discovering a new aspect of self; Something that is irrational, crazy, hair brain; Pettiness, nitpicking, splitting hairs. (rest don't apply)
gold: Gold is symbolic of the sun, representing life, warmth, light, love and well-being; Gold may also denote spirit - nonphysical beings such as angels often appear in golden light; Something rare, prized and valuable, pure gold; Optimum, best, first prize; A precious or rare opportunity, a golden opportunity; Kindness or generosity, a heart of gold; Impeccable behaviour, as good as gold.
elf: Magic; Being mischievous; Being playful or having fun; Fantasizing; Belittling self or others; Being in communion with nature.
cut: Removing something unwanted or unnecessary from your life; A need to sever ties with some person or area of your life; Injuring self or others verbally or otherwise, making a cutting remark; A bleeding cut may indicate feeling wounded; An initiation; Reducing, cutting back; Demeaning someone, cutting them down to size; Improving or creating something. (rest don't apply)
magic: Discovering the magician within, realizing that you hold far greater creative powers than you acknowledge; Creating magic within your life, making your dreams come true; Wisdom; Being conned or tricked; Creating an illusion; Delusion or deception.
hold: Being unable to release or let go of something; Clutching or grasping at something, trying to take hold; Lifting, raising, elevating, supporting or carrying, holding up; Something that proves to be true, holds up; Being in charge of somebody, controlling them, having a hold over them; Feeling that you're being held to ransom, a hold up; Coping, holding yourself together, maintaining your courage and spirits; Being stalled, delayed, unable to proceed, held up; Something that remains good, does not worsen, holds up; Refusal to give up, hanging in, holding on; Refusing to give something to somebody, holding out on them; Staying still, motionless, holding still; Excitement, anticipation or nervousness, holding your breath; Battling to contact or trace somebody, struggling to get hold of them; Being independent, self-sufficient, equal, holding your own; Coping in an emergency, acting as a temporary substitute, holding the fort; Being quiet, controlling or containing yourself, holding your temper, holding your tongue; Intentionally preventing something from taking place or being unwilling to participate, holding back; Seeing yourself or others as superior, holding court; Having full control or a good chance of winning, holding the trump cards; Helping or being helped, supported, accompanied, holding somebody’s hand; Not yielding to pressure, holding the line; Withholding information, argument or emotions, holding back, holding your fire; Apportioning blame or responsibility, holding somebody responsible; Measuring up to, comparing with, holding a candle; Extending or postponing the engagement of something, holding over; Unreleased anger or resentment, holding a grudge; Organizing or conducting e.g. holding a meeting; Something valid or true, a sound idea, one that holds water; Waiting patiently, calming down, holding your horses; Keeping something or staying somewhere e.g. holding down a job; Being still and calm, holding your peace; Lecturing or talking at length about one subject, holding forth; Making an offer or proposing something, holding forth; Staying away, holding back; Being kept away by force, being held off; A measure of your capacity for something, how well you’re able to hold or carry it; Something that is continuous, enduring, lasting, that holds good; A non-conformist, someone who does not agree, refuses to give up a position or argument, a holdout; Waiting in the hope that something better comes along, holding out; Being held responsible, holding the bag; Being judgmental or reminding somebody of a mistake, holding it over their head; Controlling or being in charge of finances, holding the purse strings; Accepting something despite not liking it, looking the other way, holding your nose.
door: An OPEN door within a dream may represent: An opportunity worth exploring; A need to open yourself up to others; An invitation; Something welcomed; Feeling exposed or vulnerable; Allowing others into your space. Dreaming of a CLOSED door may suggest: Inappropriate timing for a specific task or venture; Something that should be left alone or untouched; Shutting yourself off from others; A need for privacy; Closing the door on a phase of your life, completing a cycle, moving on.
ivory: An ivory tusk may represent: Something that is valuable to you; Defensiveness; Exploitation. (yeah it was a doorknob, not a tusk, but I still found this interesting)
police: Monitoring, observing, watching over something, policing it; Enforcing rules or laws; Seeking protection or security; Feeling a sense of responsibility or duty; Experiencing a need for order or control; Feeling that you are unable to protect yourself, handing the responsibility over to others; An authority figure; Feeling guilty or believing that you need to be punished.
mother: Something that represents nurturing, care taking, warmth or comfort; The symbol may be drawing your attention to aspects, character traits or emotions within your relationship with your own mother; Your impression of yourself as a mother; Your wise, feminine side; Yin energy; A female religious figure; Something that is innate or native e.g. mother tongue; May imply nature, natural forces, Mother Nature; Something that is large or noticeable e.g. a mother of a project.
chakras: 7th Chakra - top of head, violet, top of head, thought, spiritual connection, understanding, knowing, bliss, God.
Thoughts: Hmm. Lots of references to cutting things/people out of my life. Yeah, I want/need to do that. I'd like to do it more completely than it has been done with some of them. If I haven't cut them out at all... I wish I could. And I'm working on it as best I can. I'm just afraid that's not good enough... and that it won't work.
Things that stood out in the list of dream symbols:
Friend: "An unknown friend may represent an aspect of yourself that serves you." Child: "Comforting a child may represent nurturing your inner child." Interesting that my friend was a child, and one that became very frightened at that.
Child: "A need to revisit a childhood issue." And the child was associated with a bed for most of the dream. Ivory: "Defensiveness; Exploitation." What all that implies... is just creepy. As far as I know, nothing like that happened in my childhood. Sometimes I wonder though, because of a couple weird memories from back then and the fact that as an adult I was sexually assaulted. That kind of abuse is usually a pattern. Maybe I just got unlucky in my relationship. Maybe not. I'm not sure I want to know.
The part I do remember very well was arriving back at the little girl's room in her parents' house, as if I'd been there before and was staying there for a while. I think there were a lot of people staying in the house, sort of a family reunion or something (but in reality nobody I know in real life was there, but in the dream it made sense). Anyways, the little girl's room was laid out like the following diagram:
----------------
| |
window --> |
___________ |
| | |
| bed | | <-- door
|_______|__|___|
(Note that the head of the bed was actually where most people would put the foot of the bed; in this room it was near the door instead of the far wall. I drew the pillow in there to help illustrate. The bed had a wooden headboard as well, and I think there was a footboard on the window side of the room.)It was bed time, in fact I think it was way beyond bedtime, and we'd been in bed talking for a while. Apparently I was sleeping in the same bed as the little girl, which didn't seem weird in the dream. I still had the scissors I'd gotten from Mom. Either I or the girl found a loose strand of hair and I cut it. Then I found a very long strand of golden hair, it was really pretty yet really odd. It was thicker than normal hair, almost like thread. And it honestly looked like gold. I was thinking it must be from something or someone special (I was thinking of an elf, like Galadriel in The Lord of the Rings), and both of us were a little afraid that we had something like this in our posession. I was thinking about cutting it but something felt wrong with that idea, like it would bring some sort of danger upon us.
Then the hair was tied together at the ends, I don't remember doing that. Did it do it on its own? Now that it was a loop, I looped it back on itself until it was three or four loops, and the whole thing was much smaller now that it was looped more. I then held all the loops together by pulling it tight between my fingers and twisting it so that it made a thick cord. I told the little girl to cut it while I held it so that it didn't fall apart. She didn't seem sure about this, I think we'd discussed that it seemed a bad idea to cut it. But I think we knew we'd set something in motion and we were gonna have to go through with it. I also remember thinking I should be the one cutting it, but I let her do it. It didn't cut completely through in one snip, it sort of frayed weirdly. But after a couple more snips it cut through.
I said something like, "Alright, we've completed your spell, do what you will," to the air in general, thinking that whatever wanted us to do this thing would hear me. Nothing happened at all for a few moments. Then we heard very slow, soft thuds coming from the hallway behind the closed bedroom door. The little girl got very scared and I held her tight and watched the door from behind the headboard. I stared at the doorknob, which was a normal gold-colored doorknob, waiting for it to start turning. Even though it was shiny I was confident that I could see it turn, plus I thought it might shake very slightly when touched (I knew it was slightly loose).
I noticed at this point that the pattern on the door was a sort of latticework of wood that'd been made into a diagonal crossing pattern inside squares, a vaguely oriental look (this pattern came from the Splinter Cell Chinese Embassy levels). Then suddenly the doorknob had a very similar pattern on it, but just one square with the diagonals crossing inside it. Plus it had changed to a sort of cream color, like it was made of ivory or enamel. At least now I would know for sure when somebody turned it. And it was at this moment that I realized I was dreaming. But in my lucid moment I decided to wait and see what happened, as the dream plot seemed interesting enough without messing with it just yet. So I sat there holding the girl and staring at the doorknob.
The doorknob started to turn. Then the door whooshed open fast and I and the little girl screamed really loud (and I promptly forgot I was dreaming). But it turned out to be a guy who was staying at the house, and the girl's mother. The guy was a cop of some sort. He said something like, "What's wrong?" We apologized fast saying that we were scared it was someone or something else at the door. He accepted that and said he was there to take the little girl with him on some sort of bust because the police department did that sometimes as some sort of... educational thing? I have no clue now, but in the dream it made sense, in that I knew it was a normal thing, although I didn't feel it was very safe, even if they said it was.
The girl's mother seemed to be very pleased that her daughter had been chosen to go this time. But the girl didn't really seem to want to go, I think she wanted to be with me. There was still the thought of the golden hair and whatever cutting it might have done. And it was like the adults expected her to accept the invitation to go on the police thing, as if not wanting to go would be a horrifically outlandish thought. I'm not sure if she said she would go or not.
I don't remember any more.
Dream Symbol Analysis. Source: SoulFuture Dream Dictionary
child: Having the opportunity to begin anew; Comforting a child may represent nurturing your inner child; Fun, joy, spontaneity, lack of inhibition; A need to revisit a childhood issue; A premonition about having a child or a desire to conceive; Teasing, joking, deceiving, kidding around.
friend: An unknown friend may represent an aspect of yourself that serves you; Seeking a supportive ally; Needing to accept something, make friends with it.
scissors: Feeling cut off or disconnected from self or others; Enforcing separation; Cutting something down, reducing its impact; Creating something, shaping pieces to fit.
bedroom: Needing to rest, recharge your batteries, or rebalance your energy; Sexuality or intimate relationships. (rest don't apply)
bed: Illness, being bed ridden; Retreat, relaxation, comfort or rejuvenation; Requiring more rest; A thought or idea that is fixed in the mind, embedded or imbedded; Your intimate zone; Sex or sexuality, bedding someone.
hair: The condition and colour of the hair in your dream will provide further interpretational clues; 7th (crown) chakra, understanding, knowing, connection to spirit; Intellect, mental activity; Living in your head as opposed to your heart; Strength; Cutting hair may symbolize change or discovering a new aspect of self; Something that is irrational, crazy, hair brain; Pettiness, nitpicking, splitting hairs. (rest don't apply)
gold: Gold is symbolic of the sun, representing life, warmth, light, love and well-being; Gold may also denote spirit - nonphysical beings such as angels often appear in golden light; Something rare, prized and valuable, pure gold; Optimum, best, first prize; A precious or rare opportunity, a golden opportunity; Kindness or generosity, a heart of gold; Impeccable behaviour, as good as gold.
elf: Magic; Being mischievous; Being playful or having fun; Fantasizing; Belittling self or others; Being in communion with nature.
cut: Removing something unwanted or unnecessary from your life; A need to sever ties with some person or area of your life; Injuring self or others verbally or otherwise, making a cutting remark; A bleeding cut may indicate feeling wounded; An initiation; Reducing, cutting back; Demeaning someone, cutting them down to size; Improving or creating something. (rest don't apply)
magic: Discovering the magician within, realizing that you hold far greater creative powers than you acknowledge; Creating magic within your life, making your dreams come true; Wisdom; Being conned or tricked; Creating an illusion; Delusion or deception.
hold: Being unable to release or let go of something; Clutching or grasping at something, trying to take hold; Lifting, raising, elevating, supporting or carrying, holding up; Something that proves to be true, holds up; Being in charge of somebody, controlling them, having a hold over them; Feeling that you're being held to ransom, a hold up; Coping, holding yourself together, maintaining your courage and spirits; Being stalled, delayed, unable to proceed, held up; Something that remains good, does not worsen, holds up; Refusal to give up, hanging in, holding on; Refusing to give something to somebody, holding out on them; Staying still, motionless, holding still; Excitement, anticipation or nervousness, holding your breath; Battling to contact or trace somebody, struggling to get hold of them; Being independent, self-sufficient, equal, holding your own; Coping in an emergency, acting as a temporary substitute, holding the fort; Being quiet, controlling or containing yourself, holding your temper, holding your tongue; Intentionally preventing something from taking place or being unwilling to participate, holding back; Seeing yourself or others as superior, holding court; Having full control or a good chance of winning, holding the trump cards; Helping or being helped, supported, accompanied, holding somebody’s hand; Not yielding to pressure, holding the line; Withholding information, argument or emotions, holding back, holding your fire; Apportioning blame or responsibility, holding somebody responsible; Measuring up to, comparing with, holding a candle; Extending or postponing the engagement of something, holding over; Unreleased anger or resentment, holding a grudge; Organizing or conducting e.g. holding a meeting; Something valid or true, a sound idea, one that holds water; Waiting patiently, calming down, holding your horses; Keeping something or staying somewhere e.g. holding down a job; Being still and calm, holding your peace; Lecturing or talking at length about one subject, holding forth; Making an offer or proposing something, holding forth; Staying away, holding back; Being kept away by force, being held off; A measure of your capacity for something, how well you’re able to hold or carry it; Something that is continuous, enduring, lasting, that holds good; A non-conformist, someone who does not agree, refuses to give up a position or argument, a holdout; Waiting in the hope that something better comes along, holding out; Being held responsible, holding the bag; Being judgmental or reminding somebody of a mistake, holding it over their head; Controlling or being in charge of finances, holding the purse strings; Accepting something despite not liking it, looking the other way, holding your nose.
door: An OPEN door within a dream may represent: An opportunity worth exploring; A need to open yourself up to others; An invitation; Something welcomed; Feeling exposed or vulnerable; Allowing others into your space. Dreaming of a CLOSED door may suggest: Inappropriate timing for a specific task or venture; Something that should be left alone or untouched; Shutting yourself off from others; A need for privacy; Closing the door on a phase of your life, completing a cycle, moving on.
ivory: An ivory tusk may represent: Something that is valuable to you; Defensiveness; Exploitation. (yeah it was a doorknob, not a tusk, but I still found this interesting)
police: Monitoring, observing, watching over something, policing it; Enforcing rules or laws; Seeking protection or security; Feeling a sense of responsibility or duty; Experiencing a need for order or control; Feeling that you are unable to protect yourself, handing the responsibility over to others; An authority figure; Feeling guilty or believing that you need to be punished.
mother: Something that represents nurturing, care taking, warmth or comfort; The symbol may be drawing your attention to aspects, character traits or emotions within your relationship with your own mother; Your impression of yourself as a mother; Your wise, feminine side; Yin energy; A female religious figure; Something that is innate or native e.g. mother tongue; May imply nature, natural forces, Mother Nature; Something that is large or noticeable e.g. a mother of a project.
chakras: 7th Chakra - top of head, violet, top of head, thought, spiritual connection, understanding, knowing, bliss, God.
Thoughts: Hmm. Lots of references to cutting things/people out of my life. Yeah, I want/need to do that. I'd like to do it more completely than it has been done with some of them. If I haven't cut them out at all... I wish I could. And I'm working on it as best I can. I'm just afraid that's not good enough... and that it won't work.
Things that stood out in the list of dream symbols:
Friend: "An unknown friend may represent an aspect of yourself that serves you." Child: "Comforting a child may represent nurturing your inner child." Interesting that my friend was a child, and one that became very frightened at that.
Child: "A need to revisit a childhood issue." And the child was associated with a bed for most of the dream. Ivory: "Defensiveness; Exploitation." What all that implies... is just creepy. As far as I know, nothing like that happened in my childhood. Sometimes I wonder though, because of a couple weird memories from back then and the fact that as an adult I was sexually assaulted. That kind of abuse is usually a pattern. Maybe I just got unlucky in my relationship. Maybe not. I'm not sure I want to know.
